Today she woke up at 6am. She came into the bathroom while I was getting ready and said she wanted to sleep with me and cuddle. I told her I had to go to work. She closed the bathroom door and I could hear her in her closet (her bedroom is on the other side of our bathroom wall).
Then she came into the bathroom and said "I got to work with you, please?"
And then my heart broke. Look at that face! Then she burst into tears.
Poor sweet girl. I told her she couldn't come with me and I set her up in the living room with a movie, cereal and her milk. Josh only had 2 hours of sleep so far so I told her stay in the living room for as long as possible. I guess she ended up waking him up around 7:15 for more food!
I called later in the day to check on her. In the background I heard her saying "I need to talk to momma". The second we started talking she burst into tears.
It was a rough day. I rarely have a day where I feel like I'm making the wrong decision being a working mom but for about 4 hours this morning I was feeling it.
Then I had my yearly review. It was just what I needed to show me that providing for our family is what I need to keep doing. I got a great raise, great review and I'm now making more than my old "I won't be able to believe it if I make this much per hour" pay.
Instead of doing my usual Insanity workout while the girls play we made chocolate chip cookies together and went for a walk. I'm looking forward to our 3 day weekend (including Annika's first ballet recital Saturday!!) and getting to cuddle with Annika in the mornings :-)